7 months

Dear you,

It's been 7 months today that I am in love with you. I feel trapped because there is nothing I can do. I decided a few weeks ago to stop talking to you and to delete you from my Facebook because being away from you was killing me and because it hurt too much to see you with another girl.

Last time I went to England, I saw you. We just said "Hi". Before you kissed my cheeks I was over you. But as soon as I saw you my heart stopped because it was obvious I loved you. I still do. When I said I couldn't be friend with you I forgot to tell you that I did not want to lose you.

I spend my days crying. Every morning I wake up wondering whether you are waking up with her or with someone else. I always feel a pain in my chest and I am afraid I might never move on, and I am afraid because when my girls see a cute guy in the street, I don't. The only person in my mind is you.

I am not asking you to write me emails, or to tell me you like me. I just wish you always remember me. I just wish one day you will forgive me and that we will write emails to each other as we did over the last summer. It hurt to be away from you, it hurt to see you with another girl, but it hurts even more to be out of your life.

I am forever yours,

N.